January 2011
1 post
1.1.11
It’s 1.1.11
Fancy that!
This year Looks SO GRAND.
Cannot wait to see what happens.
I am getting old. [I turn 22.]
My dog turns 7.
My puppy turns 1.
GEES. I need to seriously get on the financial boat and soar with my education.
December 2010
1 post
12.24.10
Purchased my dad a 32 inch tv for christmas. Got my mom a new mixer. It was expensive, but I am afloat.
Although I am only getting four hours the first week of the year.
I am attending bartending school that week anyways. Hopefully something comes out of that. Will be starting Metro next month.
Started a notebook that contains all of my thoughts about couple’s and the ideas that I want...
November 2010
1 post
November 21, 2010
Things are going GREAT.
Attending bartending classes in January.
Getting my AA in psychology in December.
Start classes at Metro for my BA in January. Still Working At Kohl’s Though.
Other than that, THINGS ARE FAB!
July 2010
13 posts
July 30, 2010
Went to Elitches with Tiffany and Scott yesterday. Got severely dehydrated: but was fun. Today/tonight is Friday. I thought him and another guy were going to go out this Friday night. obviously not. No calls. Nothing. No response. Nothing. there is still more time in the night. it’s only 5:17. so who knows. meh. hope i didn’t ruin anything by calling him… :\
we’ll find...
July 28, 2010 --2
Tip:
be persistant.
be on top of it.
don’t let it get you down.
July 28, 2010
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Just got home from the movies with him. The end of the conversation wasn’t so great. He said he can’t have sex w/o...
July 26, 2010
Applied for the admin job at Kohls.
I am a little tipsy.
Got off the phone with “him.” He is well :]
Very nice.
Very Cute. Very informative. CAnnot wait to be w/ him.
July 22, 2010 -2
Couldn’t sleep at all last night. Saw him at work :] Very pleasant. Just got off the phone with him. I have concluded that he is in my life in order to get me to grow up. It’s a slow process. But, I think he has been doing it well. Tipping me. instructing me.
July 22, 2010
I don’t feel so hot this morning. At 1:58Am. Cannot sleep.
Emotionally Ill. Emotionally Distressed. Feel terrible emotionally.
July 21, 2010 -2
The problem is that I bottle up myself a lot.
He said it was okay. It’s healthy.
I asked him if I could tell him anything, he said : “Almost anything.” I need to over-analyze that.
July 21, 2010
Had a nice day. But extreme emotional breakdown in front of him :[
I feel bad.
But he said it was okay.
July 18, 2010
The party on Friday night WAS THE BEST EVER. I had a great birthday!
Esp. since I got to hang with my man. :]
lol.
Totally.
I love drinking. Flashing [him.] Making out with him. SO AMAZING!!!
I wonder what the future has in store. I just have to remember this: be Patient. Concentrate on the NOW! Fantasize when sleeping.
July 15 ,2010
I am 21 today. Had my first legal drink with my father :]
It was a margarita. With tequila.
Let me tell you. It’s a doosy, esp when you drink it after you feel ill.
I also got Tarot cards for my birthday from my mother. and also some clothes.
PARTY tomorrow night at Wrigley’s.
July 13, 2010
Birthday in two days.
July 9, 2010
Has a great fun sexy night. Tired.
Have to work for the next five days.
Still tired. A bit hungry.
Waiting for the dryer to end it’s cycle.
Will be 21 in about 6 days. SCARY.
July 2, 2010
Ugh. I have no motivation. No enthusiasm for fun. I just want to concentrate on my eduction, work and finances. I sound like a old hag.
June 2010
7 posts
June 28, 2010
Everything is all good between him [b.] and I. :]
Cannot wait to see what the future holds.
June 27, 2010
Didn’t get to bed until 130am.
I look like a fucking ugly pudge.
I am just so tired of intimidation and the mocking.
June 26, 2010
Here I am again,
Pissed off. Mother gets upset and doesn’t say why. So tired of it. She is so rude.
June 26, 2010
GOD. I am so tired of having negative impacts by my mother. I want a positive answer when I question to her as of what I should do for my retirement plan. But instead she rewords words out of a book. Instead of giving me her PERSONAL opinion. GOD.
GOD.
GOD. I should NEVER ask her again. GOD. I need EFFING ENCOURAGEMENT!!!! Uncle Larry has cancer in the lung.
My online classes have been well.
...
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June 19, 2010
Had to work last night.
So sick of a manager. [13] GOD. She wants a fucking reaction out of me. I won’t give it. I think she thinks that she is superior to me. Yeah. Fat chance.
GOD. I AM SO SICK OF THIS. But yet, I stay. GOD.
June 15, 2010
Went to the dentist last tuesday. It’s way expensive to even do anything. Going to get on my father’s insruance in October and I can use it in January. Hopefully it covers A LOT. Told ‘him’ I missed him today… but all he said was thank you. And we’ll talk tomorrow about how we ‘can fix that’. The last part was good, But i wish he would have said miss...
June 5, 2010
Started my classes on June 1.
Trying to do some essays.
One is about dating with generational age gaps.
the other is about animal rights. This animal rights thing is going to have me in tears by the end of the month. I just know it.
May 2010
10 posts
SO FUCKING ANNOYING
I AM SO FUCKING ANNOYED.
EVERYTHING i DO ISN’T FUCKING GOOD ENOUGH.
WHY DO i EVEN TRY?
May 27, 2010
Sorry for the long pause in posting. Way too many things have happened. I really don’t feel like going into detail… nor do I feel like being dramatic about such things. I don’t feel like feeling the emotions that I felt with my ex. Sadly.
However, I have had a nice time else where. I am getting excited to start the summer semester on June 1. P.S. Right now I am slightly...
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May 14, 2010
Today is Fudge’s 6th birthday. We’ll be getting her a puppy bagel soon from Einstein’s. Didn’t get much sleep last night… But did have a good time at work. Gave my number to a fellow coworker :]. He’ll be calling me once he gets off of work tonight to see if we are still at Rockrest. I honestly have to say that I am quite proud of myself for giving my number to...
May 13, 2010
I went to bed early last night. Slept okay. Still tired this morning. Have to work tonight. Tomorrow night is the party. Excitement arises in me. Lol. Next thursday, I will be at work at this time. I hope to have a sexy time after that :] Totally. I loved kissing him all over yesterday. Omeg. I cannot wait to do that again. I hate how I have to work tonight from 4-1030.. but then again I have to...
May 12, 2010
Today was a great Day. Worked 6-230. Had a nice sexy time afterwards. Yesterday was the last day of the semester. Hallelujah! I am hungry. I cannot wait to graduate. I really need to get some sleep. P.S. today was a great day. I was REALLY fulfilled. no disappointments.
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May 10, 2010
What a weekend. It really drained my. My astronomy final took 2 hours and 30 minutes. Had to guess on most because I was running out of time. Bought a new computer that was defective. Had to send it out to be reparied to Texas. Have to turn in a essay tonight and do a presentation. Then I am almost done with this semester. Just need to do two more things for art appreciation class and I am done...
May 8, 2010
Tired.
NEED TO TAKE ASTRONOMY FINAL EXAM TOMORROW.
UGH!!!!
Got a new computer yesterday. and we need to send it in for repair because it DOESNT WORK! Can you believe that? That is just my luck. I am going to go for now. A little stressed this week… due to finals.
May 5,2010 -part two
Well he just called me. Everything seems to be great. We are building a trusting friendship. That I really enjoy. He seems to also be a [anxiety] coach for me. Yay. I only wish I will be able to convey that to him one day soon.
May 5, 2010
I think I may have overwhelmed him tonight. With my anxiety. Couldn’t help we got into a few anxiety filled conversations. Hopefully he still wants to see me/be with me. Although, he may think I am pretty unstable after tonight. I need to put my mind onto something else.
May 4, 2010
What the guest psychic from parapsychology class recommends:
General Publishers: Hay House and SoundsTrue are my favorites
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How To Trust Your Vibes At Work And Let Them Work For You4-CD bySonia Choquette The Four Agreements: Practical Guide to Personal Freedom(Toltec Wisdom) Radical Forgiveness...
April 2010
17 posts
April 29, 2010
I am tired today… however I have to work tonight… while other co-workers party it up. Sad day. But this day will pass.
April 28, 2010
Today was supposed to be a “nice event.” But something suddenly came up with his Son. I understand. I know we’ll make it up. I cannot wait to enjoy my time with him. I cannot wait to CUDDLE. I expressed that to him too. We need to cuddle. I enjoy how he can cuddle with me… and he actually does it. It’s great. Yesterday at around 6pm I did my presentation for Abnormal...
Found.
A little paper I found. Wanted to type it up.
A positive mind anticipates happiness, joy, health and a successful outcome of every situation and action.
Whatever the mind expects, it finds.
Positive and negative thinking are both contagious.
People sense our aura and are affected by our thoughts.
In order to turn the mind toward the positive, inner work and training are required. Attitude...
“Why make someone your priority when they only make you their option?”
April 24, 2010
Meh. Last night I had to work. I got frustrated at times… everything just wasn’t neat and orderly like I had wanted it. I also was getting a headache… I believe from dehydration. Then as we were going home, the Supervisor the from Home Dept, told me that him and ‘you know who’ went out last night. He was hitting on a 21 year old waitress! I got frustrated to know...
April 23, 2010
It’s early in the morning. Couldn’t quite get to sleep last night… but eventually did. My mind kept thinking and thinking. They weren’t negative thoughts… but instead they were positive thoughts. I was happy that they were positive. They were almost scheme like. But I don’t want to disturb the waters… as they are good at this point in time. Have to keep...
April 22, 2010
Doing quite well today. No complaints.
Hungry for a long john [filled with white cream] though.
April 21, 2010
Doing a bit better than last evening.
Still need to continue the day. It’s 11:49AM. We’ll see how I feel/things are later.
April 20, 2010
Someday I wish I could express my self more through verbal words.
I keep myself back. Suppress myself. Cry. Crying is my way of channeling my anxiety. HELP. I hate going through this. I feel empty when I am alone. [like not alone… but just alone in the house.]
I wonder how I will get over this.
Quite frankly, I wonder if I ever will.
University Ideas...
Regis University: Master Of Arts in Marriage and Family Counseling. $505 credit/hour
Naropa University: Master of Arts in Transpersonal Counseling Psychology with approach of Marriage and Family Therapy. $810 credit/hour
April 17, 2010
I will just focus on getting my Bachelor’s after my Associate’s degree. Today is Tony’s birthday. Oh what to do? I don’t want to drive over there. If he wants to see me; he will come and see me. I have always driven over there. It’s his turn. But I don’t think he realizes that.
So nonetheless; Hopefully things turn out to be okay. Tomorrow, I have to work. I...
I see the light...
I see the light academically. I graduate in the Fall of 2010 with my Associates Degree. I will be 21 years of age.
For 4 semesters, I will attend Metro State to get my Bachelor’s Degree. In Fall of 2012, I will graduate with my Bachelor’s Degree. I will be 23 years of age. For about 6 semesters I will attend Regis University. I will get my Master of Arts in Marriage and Family...
Society...
Our obejctive in life is to gain freedom from society.
April 11, 2010
I am going to graduate in Fall of 2010 with my associate of arts in psychology. I recently bought a new digital camera. I have been tired a lot lately. Been improving myself though. Trying to become more and more independent every day. Sometimes it’s hard but I try my best.
A month from now the semester will be ending. [final day.] I will be taking two psychology classes in the summer:...
April 1, 2010
Today, I start a new offline journal. My previous journal took about eight months. I wonder how long this one will last. Everyday I continue to grow. I continue to realize that I donn’t need to depend on anybody but myself. If I want something, I personally have to go out and get it. I really don’t need a boyfriend nor a husband to in order ‘to survive.’ I am the number one...